Really upset

So, Saturday night, I went to a party as usual. At the party, I met up with a first year that I’ve met before. Anyway, to make a long story short, we ended up making out at a party. She suggested that we go somewhere else and I suggested that we should go to my room, to which she responded, “Okay, and if there are people there, we can always go to my room.” So, we start leaving and some guy pulls her away from me, and whispers something in her ear. Afterwards, this girl grabs her and says something else. Afterwards, we leave the party, and she tells me that she just wants to go home.

I can’t possibly describe how upset I am. I feel upset, rejected… just sad. It’s really hard to not have a girlfriend or be in love. I pushed around the guy who talked to her but I didn’t have the guts to hit him. I’m in enough trouble with Housing already. Or maybe I’m just afraid to hit people – how disappointing. How can he do something like that to me when he doesn’t even know me?

I walk through life and I feel alone. I want to cry, yet I have no tears.